I noticed the car in the parking lot with the hood up. I assumed it was some poor soul having to stand out in the noon heat waiting for help to arrive. I was on my way home for lunch and had slowed in preparation to stop at the red light, giving me time for a second glance his way. I saw him moving and talking and it took a few seconds before I realized he was holding a microphone. The light turned green and the few cars ahead of me began to move, but not so quickly that I couldn’t see his set up. He had an amplifier and the microphone connected to his car battery and was passionately preaching. Surrounded by cars with other hungry drivers, I had no opportunity to pause and listen and no openings to enter a different lane that would allow me to turn around. So I drove on.
The first patient to be seen by the doctor after the lunch break was a close friend of mine. When her appointment concluded she hung around for some conversation. We moved quickly from talk of the everyday activities into current world events as she is passionate about the prophetic and keenly aware of things connected that escape the notice of many. We are anxious to resume our weekly bible study which has been suspended during summer break. Before leaving she began to describe something she had seen on her way in…a car with the hood up and a man preaching. She was unable to hear what he had to say as well, but we were equally impressed with his courage to act on what he believed to be his purpose on that day. “What did I do today?” A rhetorical question she left hanging in the air as she departed.
It’s a good question. One that in the past would have sent me spiraling into guilt, overwhelmed with the complexities of the problems and needs of our world, sure that I was not doing my part. My studies into what it really means to be a Jesus-follower, however, have led me to examine my motives in all of my “doing”. Am I acting out of guilt or pride or peer pressure? Have my emotions been swayed by a passionate cause that screams “Do something!!”? Have I moved from living by the leading of the Spirit into reactions lead by the compass of my opinions?
So let’s make the question better:
“What do You want me to do today?”
I’ve struggled with this question a lot lately because His answer seems too simple. If you’ve followed me very long you already know that resting and waiting are relatively new to me and quite a challenge. Quite frankly, I’m bored with my level of inactivity. I am absolutely sure that I am right where God has led me to be and yet I am uncomfortable with my comfort. It is hard not to feel guilty for the life of ease that I live when so many struggle for even the basic necessities of life. I fear that I will be lulled into complacency by having an easy life. Surely God wants more from me!
As I ponder these things, He reminds me “You are right where I have you.” This does not require my understanding, only my surrender. He takes me a simple path: “When you lie in the comfort of your bed, pray for those who sleep on the ground. When you submerge yourself in the tub for a bath, pray for those who need water. When you are trying to find enough to do during your workday because your load is light, pray for those who are overwhelmed at work, and those who have no work. Love those who cross your path today. When I have more for you to do, I’ll let you know.”
To be a Jesus-follower is to do as He did. He only said what the Father told Him to say and He only did what the Father told Him to do.
…I have never spoken on My own authority or of My own accord or as self-appointed, but the Father Who sent Me has Himself given Me orders concerning what to say and what to tell. John 12:49
…for whatever the Father does is what the Son does in the same way, in His turn. John 5:19
There is only One that I need please with my life today. And tomorrow I will begin the day asking “What do You want me to do today?”
“A good question” was written by Kay Stinnett and first appeared on http://www.ourpassionatepurpose.com