I must have tossed and turned all night. It was one of those mornings I drug myself out of bed having felt that I had’t slept at all. I didn’t remember any particulars of my dreams and I was frustrated to begin yet another day with an energy deficit. As I stumbled to the coffee pot I uttered my frequent prayer of “Why, God, why?? Why does sleep evade me so?” I longed for the days of my youth when little sleep was required…
As the caffeine began to work its magic and the fog cleared, I remembered that just before going to sleep I had been thinking about the end of the world. Well, no wonder my slumber was disturbed! I’m not a huge fan of the televised news but had watched an evening broadcast with my husband who is a bit of a news junkie. Following this input of distressing information I spent a little time reading before trying to sleep. I was reading about bible prophecy. I do not recommend this if restful sleep is the goal.
As I retraced my mental steps of the night before, I remember that I went to sleep asking God “What do we do?” It wasn’t a fearful question but rather a practical one. How do we prepare if the world is going to end?
My husband is busy with preparation. While I tease him about being ready for the zombie apocalypse, I appreciate that he is making ready as best he can in order to feed and protect his family. He thinks of the “what to do” if we have limited or no access to things in our everyday life that we currently take for granted. He is doing what he can do now, knowing that it will be impossible to fully prepare.
Years ago I saw a little wall hanging that said “You can’t scare me. I have kids.” I thought it was funny. I realize now that I have taken this frame of mind when it comes to all the trouble in the world and the doom and gloom that the future seems to hold.
End of the world? You don’t scare me. I’ve watched my world crumble as my heart was broken and marriage fell apart. I wasn’t prepared. I’ve stumbled through the rubble, falling again and again, the inevitable scars making their mark and altering my future. Some for good. Some for bad. And I’m still standing.
End of the world? I’ve loved and lost more than I ever dreamed I would. I’ve chosen wrong paths that invited destruction into my life. I’ve wrestled with God during these times, pulling against Him and clinging to Him at the same time, living a broken life under the guise of being a confident Christian.
End of the world? I’ve stood to speak at my son’s memorial when I felt as if my heart had been ripped from my chest. We had just begun to find each other again. Just a few short weeks before, we had a sweet, sweet time together at breakfast. He left me that morning with a kiss on my cheek. I can still feel it. There is no way to prepare for this.
End of the world? You don’t scare me. I’ve found that God is faithful and true and whatever may come He will never leave me. I’ve found that my assurance of something more than this world offers is stronger than ever. I’ve found the One who suffered more than I can imagine so that there could be purpose borne out of any suffering I may endure. I’ve found Hope. I’ve found Love.
Unspeakable horrors and acts of evil pervade our world and it’s hard to imagine that it will not ultimately destroy the earth. So, God, what do we do? We stay on task: Tell them about Me. What hope do we have without Him? My heart breaks for those across this globe who face the terrors I cannot imagine and I pray for them. I give what I can to their aid and support. I try not to turn away from their images and become numb to their pain. But I pray that I will also be sensitive to the woman down the street whose world just ended with the passing of her husband. Or the man who stands begging on the corner, no longer able to sustain his world when the job ended. Or the young person whose world has become an endless rip tide of addiction. The mission remains the same: Tell them about Me.
The end of the world? Don’t be afraid. There is so much more to life than this. God in His magnificent love offers us a new beginning in Him, a life that will never end. He compels us to take His offer of mercy and grace and fall into His arms. In His love there is no fear and the end will find us still standing.
There is no fear in love…love drives out fear and dispels every trace of terror. (1 John 4:18)
“The end of the world” was written by Kay Stinnett and first appeared on http://www.ourpassionatepurpose.com